At a crossroads

Well, the other shoe finally dropped. For some time now my job future has been uncertain, and I have heard "knives being sharpened" as the board of directors where I work looked for ways to economize. In the world of non-profits, that typically doesn't bode too well for the administrative staff, as administration is seldom given much value in NP culture.

I was told last Monday that my job was being abolished, and that I would no longer be working there as of December 31. I can bitch and moan about it, feeling it is "unfair" and "shortsighted", but I am choosing instead to see the opportunity I am being presented with. I had not been happy at this organization for some time, and though I'd done the best job I could do with the resources I had been given to do it, I felt unappreciated and unseen. Changes were made to the structure of the organization just recently that I saw as negative and morally suspect, putting one person basically in control of the whole organization. It is time to move on, and I am going to do my best now for myself. I am not sure what I will do, but I do know that I have faith in the journey I am on, and I will find something better.

If all that sounds airy-fairy to you, too bad. My experience has been that I am always given what I need at times like this to move in a positive and enriching direction, and that is bouying my spirits as I face the uncertainty of what will come after 12/31/07. All I can do is take the next right action, and I have been preparing for change for some time now. We shall see what's next.